It's 7.31 in the evening right now, and I am feeling a little sleepy already. I've got my former JC's PE attire on because for some reason, whenever I'm at home, I'll end up wearing loose shirt and shorts. God knows why - but I find them comfortable. XD blogged at|7:31 PM|
Anyways, my head is a little bothered right now. My life is pretty much okay, but, it seems like life can never be that great. You get something, and then a couple other horrible scenarios follow. Like for example, when you manage to sweep something off your feet, you find yourself dealing with something else. Or when you manage to get something you want, you find that, that something you want has its own appalling qualities. Or when you have moved on, and then the past will stalk your back like you owed it. Actually, in a way, we do owe something to our past. Especially our more horrid past. What do we owe it? We owe it our better side. Our past can be great, and that past will leave us alone - it's like having a great friend from before. But when you have a not-too-good past, it's like an enemy and you bloody hell owe that person either a good explanation or just a simple apology. Either way, what I'm saying here is that once you've got some crappy past you can't leave behind, it's bound to track your trails like a psychopathic dog.
So what can we do? Well, I don't just bring up stuff without having a reason to. So when I bring up about crappy pasts, it's because I do have 'em. And what I did in this case was to simply welcome that past with open arms, and fix it by, well, giving in and letting that past get its way with me. I'm choosing to be vague because, well, I don't feel like getting into detail. But anyways, it feels good, and that past is happy, and I am happy because, like I said, it feels good. That particular past will not haunt me with a knife, but unfortunately, because we have a certain faculty in our brain called the 'Memory Department', I find it especially hard to forget too. So what do I do now, you may ask? I live with it. I made it happy, so now I am going to have to be friends with it. Sounds good? yeah, definitely. So when we are friends, that past wouldn't be a horrid past anymore. In fact, it's going to be my present, and a very healthy and happy and content present at that.
God, going through so many different perspectives is tough, but sometimes, it does help. So right now, that past just can't be my past no more because not only have I fixed it, I can't forget it. And so that will be my present, and because we move on, who knows he could be my future too?
Yeah, I just busted my own bubble at the last sentence there. But at least after screwing your poor brains for having to read my nonsense, you guys get the meat of the deal. Alright, that's all I can say for now.
Peace.
I'd like to start off by saying Gong Xi Fa Cai! Lol... yeah, I bet there're zilch Chinese people reading this but well - I'm half of it! XD blogged at|9:16 AM|
Tomorrow I'll be meeting my Ah Kong with my fam for respect's sake and of course, because he's my dad's father. So yeah - I've always liked to visit him. (Not because of Ang Paos mind you - I mean, okay, who doesn't love 'em but yeah XD) Although my family and I aren't so close to my dad's relatives, my Ah Kong is fun. He's so cute - like, usually grandfathers speak only their traditional language, but he speaks English, and it's perfect English with an American accent even! HAHA - I love it. And not all dads look like their son or vice versa, but I can totally see my dad in him, AND vice versa - and then I've got an uncle who's like the complete mirror image of my dad and because of that, I get biased and he becomes my favourite uncle LOL. He's a sweet guy anyways. So yeah, can't wait for tomorrow! ^.^ I'll wear something red. Actually I already am today for work.
Work has been really fun. I mean, because I'm working at a retail outlet, of course there will be times when we all (my colleagues and I) get bored stiff when no customers come in, but all-in-all, I love this job. No, not because I can slack, but because the people around me are great, and I have this colleague - MY GOD, she must be like an angel in disguise. She might come off simple to most people, but once you know her better, you'd wanna never loose contact with her. She's there to listen, give me advice like those that never crossed my mind, and if not that, she'd give me advice that had long been bubbling inside me but that I don't have the guts to believe it. I mean, gosh, the worst part was when I did some mistake(S) on the cashing and then I had to like pay back the money on that day itself, which was yesterday, but she did it for me! She went down to get the cash out from her ATM and pay it for me!!! I mean, MY GOD, I was so touched I got speechless. Even THAT didn't cross my mind - I was just thinking about how I had to explainto my boss about it when she came in to save me from getting kicked in the butt. And THEN, when we had to go home, she took one of the bags with a wrapped stuff toy in it that she had at first claimed was for her sister, only to hold it up and say that it was for me. I was like WHAT??! I mean, we barely know each other for five days and already she's spending so much for me? I mean, I've torubled her enough by needing her to pay for my mistakes, but now she actually even bought me a gift??? I was so shocked I didn't breath for a minute there.
But yeah, material possessions aside, she really is a great coworker. There are so many types of people out there in the working life that I've met - lazy, couldn't-care-less attitude, complete hypocrites (I believe we're all hypocrites to some extent, because sometimes we have to act a certain way for the good of the whole situation, but god, those hypocrites I'm referring to? They're just being assholes), arrogant, domineering, proud, and so on. It's a really dangerous world out there so we gotta step into it with a set of thorns and spikes of our own. But those aside again, this certain colleague of mine is definitely, without a doubt, the best colleague I've had so far. She may not be the most stylish person ever, but inside, she's already so god-damn beautiful.
Alright, I'll be working again today. So for my lovely sisters XD - do come online to chat before I get pulled away for work! LOL I miss you guys already - can't believe I bumped into you yesterday AISY! HAHA so unbelievable, but at least you got to see my shop ^.^ - anyways, I'll end here now. Been really busy the past few days and that's why I couldn't go on. But I'll be getting three days off from Sunday onwards so see you guys on here more often yeah?
Peace.
The skies are turning a brighter shade of grey blogged at|11:27 PM|
The horizon shorn in pinks and rays
Orange and warm - a sizzling rush
The sea a splendour of blues and hues
Chill and darkness truce
And upon my cheeks a frisky flush
Have I been sought after...?
I wouldn't know - I thought later
My fate of solitude, and peace together
But loneliness altogether
A different story - a bother
I find myself quietly in my heart stutter
I need to be loved as much as I'd like to love
A heart cannot beat alone
I need something to bend and curve
This state that for me is so prone
A dream, and a wish for something deep
And strong like the overpowering skies and asleep
Am I beneath the cloak fringed by the horizon
A sizzling rush is true and it creeps
While my mind sways by the sea that rips
My soul - so heavy it weighs almost like a burden
Because although I long for love and its pleasure
I'd rather be all alone hereafter
I am happy with all things that has happened
I will wait though, and I will not falter
One will pass after the next and the other
I will light a candle - a symbol that my heart will still burn
For that one person I do not know who
God knows - I will not question
And although that next person could be you
Don't count on me not being a sentence.
I'm not discouraging love - I am merely challenging it. =)
Peace.
Yesterday was my first day at work and it actually turned out great. Teddy bears all around me... the whole place was warm all-in-all. I like that in my working environment. Although... I do know that if I were to hold a job as a criminal pyschologist in future, the job wouldn't even hit the warm factor. But it doesn't matter - I think everyone can adapt to their environments, it's just a matter of anting to or not. So I say, just to be in my dream job, I bloody hell sure will adapt that's for sure. blogged at|9:04 AM|
I will be working today again, all the way until Saturday, and then I will get my day off. Today will be a very tiring and busy day because it's a Monday and the company made it a point to do a lot of cleaning up on Mondays. Oh well, and to think I only just started yesterday. And right now the Grammy's on TV and I probably can't watch a third of it because I have to go to work. What a wonderful start to a day. Sigh... I guess I shouldn't be complaining too much. I can do nothing about it, unless I prefer to get fired just to watch some television programme, no matter how the programme promises so much for fans like me. :(
Oh hell, there might be an encore who knows. (I'm just trying to comfort myself XD) But if there isn't, there's such a thing as YouTube, and I can bet my two cents' worth that they're gonna put up short video-takes of parts of the entire show. Ah... this is when I love the Internet so much.
Peace.
blogged at|9:51 AM|Alright! SO today is the 11th of February and I am here to wish the one and only MIKE SHINODA of LINKIN PARK a very HAPPY 30th BIRTHDAY! Wishing you all the best for your future endeavours be it musical or artistic - you are equally talented in both brotha! I am calling you brotha because well, apparently a certain sister of mine has since tied the knot with him, ahem ahem... XD LOL!
BTW sissers (LOL)! I am on right now, so if you are, do get on MSN before I get to work today lmao! Sigh.. work work. Teddy bears! But speaking of teddy bears, yup let's not get out of topic - Happy Birthday once again to Mike Shinoda, he's just so great. He's actually my role model in a way, LOL, but of course, Chester will always be my darling XD. He sure as hell doesn't look 30 btw, not in the pic, not in real-life. O.OAnyways, I am not afraid to dream big, are you? At least, I am one to believe that reality can only happen where dreams have first been wished. ^.^
So step on that wishing pedal and don't be afraid to soar with the wind and by the stars - because for all we know, our wishes always hold something of the real world. ;-D Peace.
I wait for you... I don't know why blogged at|6:44 PM|
All I know is I can't hide
At this temperature...
You could take over my mind...
Like gossamer, you softly touch
He draws me in...
I'm powerless
He possessess...
An enchantment
Tell me I'm forgiven
He calls
Don't know how I fell under his spell
Lately... I've been driven
He smiles...
An enchantment
I wait for you... I'm mesmerized
This love is like a potion in disguise...
I'd tightrope walk... with a blindfold on my eyes
I can't escape... Or so it seems
I'd run away... He's in my dreams
He possessess...
An enchantment
It's the type of sleepwalk that never ends
A kind of loan with no dividends
It's a parlour game where you're given chase
Guess it could be called an acquired taste
I know, he knows
He calls, I go... I know
This could be an enchantment...
Lyrics by Corinne Bailey Rae - she's my favourite female artist ever. ;-D Pure and just simply au naturale.
Peace.
Smile when the world caves in on you blogged at|3:42 PM|
Smile when the seas turn a murky blue
Smile when the grass sheds its green
Love the flowers that have wilted and torn
Love the soil that has its life shorn
Love the life as we are - a teen.
Because life can never be all lovely and nice
Everything comes with a certain tag and price
But we can choose to live in bliss
Amidst hurt and chaos in harmony
Listen to the singing waves that loom
And the baby leaves that sprout from the old
Smell the flowers that are still abloom
And the beating heart of the earth we behold
I am here to show you the way
If not for everything, I can guide you in some
Smile and love and laugh in glee
And step away from the shadows into the sun.
Dedicated to aisy! Stay cheery and don't let obstacles put you down. I will be here for you. =D